Ngethuba elidlulileyo Ndikuxelele malunga Ukunganyangeki, uhambo lwangaphakathi lwembaleki, de URalph del valleWokugqibela we I-Desnivel Award yoNcwadi ngo-2014. Umshicileli wayenobubele ngokwaneleyo ukuba andithumelele ikopi yencwadi, engaphezulu kokuhlangabezana nolindelo endandinalo ngalo. Phantse iinyanga ezintathu zidlulile oko. Kodwa ungacingi ukuba kundithathe phantse iinyanga ezintathu ukuyifunda: ndiyifundile ndaphinda ndayifunda ngalo lonke elo xesha izihlandlo ezininzi. Kwaye ndiza kuyenza kwakhona. Iingcinga, iimeko, ukucamngca, ibali ngokwalo lindichukumisile kangangokuba ndaphinda ndaziva ndinesidingo sokuphinda ndifunde imihlathi amatyeli aliqela, kwaye ndihlale "ndikhotha" amabinzana entlokweni yam njengaleyo ijika ilekese umlomo.
Ukuba uyabaleka, ukuba ukhe wabaleka, ukuba uziva isidingo sokuqalisa ukubaleka, ukuba ufuna ukuqonda ukuba kutheni abantu beleqa ukutya indlela ngezihlangu zabo (okanye ngebhayisekile, ngeepali zabo, kubalulekile ntoni oko) ngoku unomdla wokwazi ukuba kutheni abantu bebaleka, kuya kufuneka uyifunde le ncwadi. Mhlawumbi ingxelo eliqala ngayo ibali, "Indoda ebalekayo yindoda ebalekayo" kubonakala ngathi kugqithisile kuwe. Kodwa uya kuqonda izinto ezininzi ukuba uyayifunda le ncwadi, hayi malunga nokubaleka nje. Kuba Ukunganyaniseki Yiyo uhambo lwangaphakathi evavanya izinto ezininzi, kwaye, nokuba uyabaleka okanye awubaleki, ngokuqinisekileyo uziva ubandakanyeka kwezinye zazo, ukuya kuthi ga kwinqanaba elincinci okanye elincinci.
Ukunganyaniseki Incinci yencwadi engaqhelekanga. Kwaye, kuncwadi, kukuncoma, ubuncinci kulapho injongo yam ikhoyo. Libali lendoda eselula elithathela ingqalelo xa liqhubeka lisibalisela ibali, njengabafundi, ekufuneka silakhe ngokutsha. Kodwa ibali lilula. Umlinganiswa wethu ophambili yindoda eyahluliweyo ethi, emva kokwehluleka kothando, ukusilela engakwazangayo ukoyisa, isondele eBerlin, ubuncinci oko kufanelekile, kuba ayikatsho ngqo ukuba ikuphi. Ngokwenene, yonke into isongelwe ngohlobo lwe-aura yemfihlakalo. Asilazi igama lakhe, kwaye usebenzisa ii-inishiyali ukukhankanya abanye abantu, ngaphandle kwabo bangadibaniyo kwaye ngabalinganiswa abalula abanqumlayo ngeendlela ezithile ebomini bakhe ukuba bangaze babuye.
Ibali libhaliwe ngokungathi li kwidayari. Ngale ndlela, ayinaso isakhiwo esichazwe ngokucacileyo, kodwa umlinganiswa ophambili uya phambili, ngamanye amaxesha ubhala ngaphezulu nangamanye amaxesha angaphantsi, kwaye ungena kubomi bakhe obukhanyisa iingcinga zakhe kwaye azame ukufumana inkcazo ngobomi bakhe, ngubani sele ephila lento ayiphilayo.
I-protagonist iqala ibali lakhe phakathi "Ubusika basePrussia", ekungxameni. Kodwa, Kutheni ubaleka? Le yenye yezinto ezingaziwayo ukuba uzama ukuziqonda ngokwakhe: izizathu ezimkhokelela ekubeni aziqeqeshe ngamandla akhe, izizathu ezimtyhalayo, izizathu zokuba ayidinge, njengokuphefumla. Njengoko ibali liqhubeka, umlinganiswa ophambili usityhilela ukuba, ngenxa yokusilela kwakhe kwaye emva nje kokufika kwindawo yakhe entsha, ugqiba kwelokuba azicel 'umngeni: ukubaleka umdyarho wamahafu kwisithuba esimalunga neenyanga ezi-6. Kodwa umlinganiswa wethu ophambili akanguye nomdlali.
Ngaba ukhe wazama ukufikelela kumngeni obonakala ungenakwenzeka kuwe? Kungenxa yokuba le yenye yemixholo emikhulu lencwadi ithetha ngayo: amandla okuphucula, umgudu kunye nemfuno yokubeka iinjongo zokuphumelela ukusikelwa umda.
"Ubomi kukuhlawula ityala elingekahlawulwa"
Kum, eli binzana lelona lishwankathela eyona ntsingiselo yeli bali, ubuncinci yeyona indibethileyo, kwaye eqhubeka enkenteza entlokweni yam, njengala mabinzana ashukumisayo athandwa ngumntu wonke kwaye anokuba indlu yesikhanyiso ezinzulwini zobusuku Kwaye le ncwadi igcwele izivakalisi kunye namaqhekeza amangalisayo.
Ngokwenyani, incwadi iyonke ijikeleze olu luvo. Kwaye ekugqibeleni, emva kokurhuqa umbono wokuqala (ukubaleka ukubaleka), safikelela kwisigqibo esigcwele ithemba. Kungenxa yokuba, ekugqibeleni, sinokuhlawula loo matyala angahlawulwanga.
