Besivele silangazelela okuthile okusha kusuka Paul auster, futhi yize kuthathe isikhashana ukuphuma (okwethu thina esilandela umbhali kancane futhi sikujabulele cishe konke ukufundwa kwakhe), sesivele sinakho nathi. Ngesihloko esingajwayelekile okungenani: "4 3 2 1", ishicilelwe ngaphansi kwe- Wokuhlela Seix Barral. Okulandelayo, sikutshela okwengeziwe ngale ncwadi futhi sikushiya nengxoxo emfushane umbhali ngokwakhe ayinikeze umshicileli.
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Ukuphela kweqiniso elingaguquki empilweni kaFerguson ukuthi wazalwa ngoMashi 3, 1947, eNewark, eNew Jersey. Kusukela ngalowo mzuzu kuqhubeke, izindlela ezahlukahlukene zivuleka phambi kwakhe futhi zizomholela ekutheni aphile izimpilo ezine ezihluke ngokuphelele, akhule futhi ahlole uthando, ubungani, umndeni, ubuciko, ezombusazwe ngisho nokufa ngezindlela ezahlukahlukene, neminye imicimbi kuphawulwe isigamu sesibili sekhulu lama-XNUMX leminyaka laseMelika njengesimo esingemuva.
Ungathini uma ngabe wenze okuhlukile ngesikhathi esibucayi empilweni yakho? 4 3 2 1, Inoveli yokuqala kaPaul Auster eminyakeni eyisikhombisa, isithombe eshukumisayo sesizukulwane sonke, a ukuza kweminyaka universal kanye ne-saga yomndeni ehlola ngendlela ekhazimulayo imikhawulo yamathuba nemiphumela yezinqumo zethu. Ngoba wonke umcimbi, noma ungabonakala ungasebenzi kangakanani, uvula amanye amathuba futhi uvala eminye.
Ukuxoxisana kukaSeix Barral
Umuntu obuzayo: Yenzeka kanjani into ekahle?
UPaul Auster: Angazi ngempela. Ngelinye ilanga ngangilapha endlini yami futhi umqondo wokubhala indaba yempilo yomuntu ngokuhlukahluka, impilo yabo efanayo, yangishaya. Kwavuka. Angazi ukuthi kungani noma kanjani. Angikaze ngikwazi ukulandela umsuka womqondo wencwadi. Umzuzwana owodwa akukho futhi ngomzuzu olandelayo unokuthile lapho. Angikaze ngikwazi ukuthola lowo mzuzu lapho kungenzeki lutho. Kwenzekile nje. Engingakutshela khona ukuthi ngangijabule kakhulu ngalowo mbono, okwakuyinto eyangibamba kakhulu. Kumele ngithi, ngiyibhale ngokushisa, kwaba sengathi kudansa futhi kujikeleza, futhi kwakukhona ukuphuthuma ngalokhu engangikwenza okwakungavamile.
Umuntu obuzayo: Uyakhumbula mhla impilo yakho yashintsha?
UPaul Auster: Le ncwadi akuyona incwadi yomlando womuntu, neze. Kepha kukhona iqiniso ngaphakathi kwakhe elihambelana nokuthile okwangehlelayo, mathupha, ngenkathi ngineminyaka eyi-14. Kwenzeka ngenkathi ngisekhempini lasehlobo futhi iqembu labafana, cishe abangamashumi amabili bethu, laya ehlathini ukuyonyuka futhi labanjwa ngokuduma kwezulu okubi. Futhi sifuna ukubaleka emisebeni, sangena ebaleni elivulekile, indawo evulekile. Ukuze sikwazi ukuyifinyelela, kwakudingeka sikhase ngaphansi kocingo oluxhuma iketanga. Ngemuva kwalokho saya kwifayela elilodwa, ngamunye ngamunye, ngaphansi kocingo. Kwakukhona umfana phambi kwami, ngisho eduze kakhulu ukuthi izinyawo zakhe zazingamasentimitha ukusuka ebusweni bami. Kwathi esedlula ngaphansi kocingo, umbani washaya, wambulala khona manjalo. Futhi ngicabanga ukuthi leyo yinto enqumayo kunazo zonke engake ngabhekana nayo. Bona umfana efa ujuqu. Kuyinto engihlukumeze impilo yami yonke. Futhi le ncwadi, ngicabanga, iphuma kulolo lwazi. Ngakho-ke kuyinto engihambe nayo kusukela ngineminyaka engu-14 ubudala.
Umuntu obuzayo: Ithuba.
UPaul Auster: Kube khona ezinye izikhathi ezibalulekile empilweni yami. Ngicabanga ukuthi ingozi yokuthola umkami, uSiri Hustvedt, mhlawumbe ibaluleke kakhulu. Futhi kwenzeka ngengozi. Kwesinye isikhathi ngicabanga ukuthi bekungenzekani kimi ukube besingahlangani ngaleyo ndlela. Impilo yami yonke ngabe yehluke kangakanani? Ngalokhu angisho ukuthi ithuba libusa konke. Sinenkululeko yokuzikhethela, sinenkululeko yokuzikhethela nokwenza izinqumo. Futhi sinezibopho nezidingo zokwanelisa. Kepha okufanele sihlale sikwenza, ukwethembeka nokuthi iyini impilo, ukuqonda nokwamukela ukuthi okungalindelekile kuhlala kuyingxenye yendwangu yempilo.
Umuntu obuzayo: Inoveli ekhuluma ngempilo.
UPaul Auster: Ngakho-ke ngaqala ukucabanga ukuthi kungani ngangizindla ngalo mbuzo, yini i-autobiographical encwadini nokuthi yini engekho. Ngokusobala, konke okuvela emcabangweni wakho kukhuthazwa ngulwazi lwakho uqobo. Kepha, ngokwesibonelo, uma unomlingiswa kule noveli yakho obhema usikilidi futhi usubheme osikilidi abayi-10.000 XNUMX empilweni yakho, ngabe lokho kungukuphila komuntu noma cha? Futhi noma kunjalo, i-crux yalolu daba ingamanga. Noma ufaka lokho okubizwa ngokuthi "amaqiniso angempela" kwinoveli, baba yindaba eqanjiwe, baba yingxenye yenganekwane. Ngicabanga ukuthi kungaba ukuhumusha kabi ukubona le ncwadi njengohlobo lwesitatimende somlando wesithunzi. Akuyona. Akunjalo neze.