Kwiminyaka engamashumi amathathu anesithandathu, kwaye malunga nokugqiba iminyaka elishumi yokuhlala ukuze afumane isikhundla esisigxina njenge-neurosurgeon, uPaul Kalanithi wafumanisa ukuba unomdlavuza wamaphaphu wenqanaba IV. Uye wasuka ekubeni ngugqirha onyanga iimeko zokugcina kwisigulana esasokola ukuhlala.
Khumbula ukuba uza kufa. Ihlala " Sisikhumbuzo esingalibalekiyo ngentsingiselo yobukho bethu. Ukucamngca ngokuthobekileyo nokumangalisayo okubonisa amandla ovelwano; amandla angenasiphelo okomelela komntu ukuze anike okona kulungileyo kuye xa ejongene noloyiko olukhulu.
Esi sisishwankathelo esisemthethweni sencwadi. Ukwazi oku kunye nokufunda isihloko, awunomdla wokuyifunda? Ndiyazenza, zininzi, kwaye kunjalo phantse ngalo lonke ixesha, ngelixa siphila siyalibala ukuba esona sifo sinzulu sikhona kwaye ngethamsanqa okanye ngelishwa kungekho lunyango kukufa. Siyalibala ukuba kuyakubakho usuku lokugqibela kuthi sonke kwaye ngesi sizathu silibale okubaluleke ngokwenene:
- Ukuphila ngoku, eyona nto sinayo, apha ngoku.
- Ixesha elidlulileyo lidlulileyo kwaye ikamva alikafiki, ke kutheni ucinga kakhulu ngalo? Kutheni ucwangcisa kangaka ukuba ezo zicwangciso azinakuze ziphumelele? Kutheni ulangazelela ixesha elidlulileyo, kutheni umile kulo ukuba sele ilixesha lokufa?
- De xabisa abantu abangasoloko bekhona kuphela kodwa nabo bakhoyo ngoku, ecaleni kwethu.
- De Phila wonke umzuzu hayi ngokungathi yeyokugqibela kodwa uyiqonda ngokupheleleyo, ukuba iyenzeka, kufuneka uyonwabele, nokuba ngumzuzu olungileyo okanye ombi, ikho ukuze ikufundise into.
- Obo bomi sisipho ekufuneka sibuxabisile kwaye Kwanaxa elona xesha libuhlungu linento entle ngabo.
Ndathi, Ndiyayiqaphela le ncwadi kuluhlu lwam lweencwadi ezisalindelwe. Kwaye ubhalile phantsi?
Ndiyibhalile nje phantsi, pint! Enkosi!