IBorges iboniswe ngexesha olu dliwanondlebe, kudala ndingekazalwa, umfanekiso okwazile ukuvula amehlo am. Ndiqonde, enkosi kumagama obuhlakani baseArgentina, ukuba ngexesha lohambo lwam lokuba umbhali oqeqeshiweyo ebephulukene nenjongo. Ndithetha ntoni ngale nto? Ewe, wayesele ekwenzile ukufunda (nangokubhala ngokubhala) uxanduva, a msebenzi. Mhlawumbi intle, kwaye enye bendizimisele ukuyenza, kodwa ndiyasebenza emva kwayo yonke loo nto. Ukuba ndiyifundile kukuphucula, ukufunda ukwakha abalinganiswa abanomdla kunye neeplani, ukufumana izinto zokuphononongwa kwam, ukuthambisa uncwadi olulungileyo, okanye ukunqanda ukwenza iimpazamo ezimbi. Kodwa bendilibele eyona nto ibalulekileyo, isizathu sokuba, njengomntwana, ndiqale ukufunda: kuba yandonwabisa.
Ubumnandi abunyanzelekanga
«Ndicinga ukuba ibinzana elifunekayo lokufunda liyaphikisana, ukufunda akufuneki kube sisinyanzelo. Ngaba kufuneka sithethe ngokuzonwabisa okunyanzelekileyo? Ngoba? Ubumnandi abunyanzelekanga, ulonwabo yinto efunwayo. Ulonwabo olunyanzelekileyo? Sifuna ulonwabo. »
Ingxaki kuthi abo bazinikele kuncwadi kukuba umda phakathi komsebenzi wethu kunye nokuzonwabisa kwethu kulungile kakhulu. Kwimeko yam, Uncwadi yinto endizithandayo, kodwa ikwangumsebenzi wam (njengoko umbhali waseJapan uNisio Isin watshoyo), yiyo loo nto ndiyithatha nzulu. Ukuya kuthi ga ngoku (ngoku ndiyakuqonda), ndizinyanzele ukuba ndifunde iincwadi, kwaye ndibhale malunga nezifundo ezithile, kuba, mhlawumbi kwinqanaba lokuqonda, bendicinga ukuba abafundi, umhlaba, kwaye ekugqibeleni uluntu belulindele ukuba umbhali. Ngale ndlela, yonke into eyayidlala, inika umdla, ngamafutshane, isondelelene, iyonwabile kwaye imnandi kuncwadi yayisifa kancinci kum.
Abanye bethu bakhuliswa becinga ukuba umsebenzi kufuneka ube uyadika, kwaye kukho into engathandekiyo kwaye ecekisekayo malunga nokonwabela oko. Mhlawumbi esi sesona sizathu sokuba, xa kufikwa kufundo nasekubhaleni, ndizonakalise. Kwaye ndizuze ntoni kuyo yonke le nto? Ukufundwa okungandonwabisanga, ukuchitha ixesha, ukukhangela okungenaziqhamo ukuzalisekisa ukulindelwa kwabanye. Ndiqondile, emva kokucinga kakhulu, ukuba umbhali-mfundi (Ewe, andikwazi ukukhulelwa enye ngaphandle komnye) inokuzalisekiswa kuphela ngokuzonwabisa ngolonwabo. Kuya kufuneka afunde iincwadi afuna ukuzifunda, kwaye abhale ngento afuna ukuyibhala, kangangoko anako, ukuze angaziva ukuba ubugcisa bakhe, umsebenzi wakhe, kunye nobomi bakhe, bungena njani kobobubhanxa.
Sifunda ukonwaba
«Ukuba incwadi iyakudika, yibeke phantsi, sukuyifunda kuba idumile, sukuyifunda incwadi kuba yeyangoku, sukuyifunda incwadi kuba indala. Ukuba incwadi iyadinisa, yishiye… loo ncwadi ayibhalelwanga wena. Ukufunda kufuneka kube luhlobo lokonwaba. "
Ekugqibeleni, ndiyakholelwa ukuba wonke lo mbandela ushwankathelwe kumcimbi ophambili kunye nexesha, kuba sonke siza kufa ngolunye usuku. Nangona kule ngxelo ye-lapidary akufuneki sikhuphe nawuphi na umyalezo we-nihilistic. Ngokungafaniyo: Kuya kufuneka sazi ukuba ubomi bufutshane kakhulu, nokuba iminyaka iza idlule, kwaye ayinangqondo ukubambelela kwimbonakalo yelize. Kwelam icala, andifuni ukujonga emva ndizisole ngokudlulileyo. Namhlanje Ndilandela ubugcisa obumsulwa, uvuyo lobuntwana lokufumanisa umhlaba omtsha ekufundeni, ulonwabo olungenakulinganiswa lokudala amabali am. Oko, kum, kuncwadi. Oko, kum, bubomi.
Nangona kunjalo, ezi zizigqibo zam, ngokuqinisekileyo akufuneki zivumelane nezakho. Ndoyisakele kumzamo wam wokuziphatha ngendlela enengqiqo, enoxanduva kunye neyabantu abadala; ukuguqula umsebenzi wam wokuba ngumbhali ube ngowaseburhulumenteni okanye unobhala wenkundla. Ndonwabe kuphela xa ndimamele intliziyo yam, kwaye intliziyo yam ixelela ingqondo yam ukuba ayilunganga. Ke, ndiza kumphulaphula kube kanye. Andifuni kusebenza njengomzekelo, kwaye andikucebisi ukuba ulandele ekhondweni lomphuphi ongakhulanga nongaguqukiyo; Kodwa ndivumele ikratshi lokucebisa kuwe, ongumfundi, kunye nawe, mhlawumbi umbhali, ukuba uwakhumbule amazwi kaBorges: "Ukufunda kufuneka kube luhlobo lokonwaba".